i'll be right here with you, dear.

things usually turn out better than what you think, so relax.
i have this tendency to imagine the worse of things. this may have stemmed from the safety net of the mentality "expect the worse, hope for the best" and may birth negativity. oh well that's just me. i'm really enjoying this phase of my life where i'm discovering myself. heehee. XD
an incredibly hot sunday afternoon. spent a few days without the computer, i realise. or does it just feel that way? hmm. will go swimming in 40 mins time. ^^ spent the 1.5 hours on maths assignment and 1 hour on chinese. and i'm still not done with chinese. this shows how worthy i am of BSP.
seriously my mum is super enthu about it but a) my chinese is not good enough b) i'm too stupid.
something happened to meg today. well...things don't always go according to plan but luckily it didn't blow up. lucky girl, i think if i were in the same situation my awesome luck would have gotten me nowhere. really, the aftermath is to focus on other stuff and like, other friends. but i know you know what to do. :) anyway i'll always be there.
camp in two days. i don't know if i will call mc. but i am excited, surprisingly. packed and ready to go. just uhm, need to get on with the homework that has to be handed in TOMORROW! and it's NOT procrastination okay, i really was busy and the weather is not helping!
damndamn i need music and a translator. and i snow machine.

nothing's right i'm torn.

really it's super difficult to find good, emo, meaningful pictures unless you use gettyimages or something that requires a bloody ACCOUNT.
man that sucks.
ACC: sucks like shit. i hate hate hate the teacher my reputation is keeping from using the fword. he's gay overpowering and plain suckish can.
LA: mrs ang was quite scary today cause she was angry. she like, never gets angry. and we didn't even hear her start the lesson. we were like sitting all over the place.
OH YEAH. during LA, jia, bel and i were discussing *person1* who keeps spreading crap. then me and bel agree that we dunno what to think of the both of them. and jia just hates her lah. and believes that *person2* is what *person1* says. but i don't believe, or don't know what to think. gasp.
science: SIP. damndamndamn. no one cared till like this lesson. i want my a+ next term so i heck care le, gonna mug from t3w1d1. and during the holidays too.
BTW I HAVE 4 PROJECTS ALREADY AND THE TEACHERS CONFIRM HAVEN'T ALLOCATE FINISH HOMEWORK. T_T
computing: FUN cause my group RAWKS THE ... PINEAPPLES SORRY I'M SO RANDOM. "house" would have been really cliche'? so pineapples came next. wahaha. i supplied skeletal idea, then AWESOME GROUP MEMBERS bel, jia, primaball, chicken, regine, noel, siheng, crys(we need a nickname for you!)filled the rest in with nicer stuff.
up till now i was okay-okay with siheng then bel kept saying that he's cute then i realised he's those kind of weirdweird cute so i agree! he's very funny can! and super-surprisingly he's playing the boy friend. not love interest. heh, or not? up to you to decide. hopefully our film will turn out great, cause we have good people, good storyline etc. i think it's gonna be super fun. actually wanted lead role cause i never acted lead before, but majority liked crystal and i believe she's good. anyway i'm too tall X(and i got another part which is quite hard to act, which is the crazy mother. :D hope i can do the lines for each scene.
wlau my arm is in PAIN, at the joint, cause ms tan got me to do lots and lots of pull-ups yesterday for practice.
history got b. GREAT LAH. missed by like, 3 marks. then the whole time he kept using "13,14,15" for average marks and naturally i was pissed. next project grouping with jiaxin, inez and junan (maybe?) so should be okay. and anyway, i'm going to PIA.
really need to be studying geog. and other school related stuff.
veryvery tired. veryvery excited for film.
wheeeeeee practising my siao-ness~~~~

it's not over tonight, i wanna have a chance to make it right.

it is, literally, going to be shreds of song.
means titles are gonna be little snippets of songs relatively relevant to the post.
yesh, i have decided on a whim to start blogging again, so don't exactly expect commitment. but it's kind of a way to express my feelings. so i'll spend a little time on it everyday. just a LITTLE.
slowly getting my groove back on.
today was kinda like, swayday.
firstly, forgot there was PE, which led me to
a. have to buy a PE shirt which is still okay
b. realising i wore GREEN shorts
c. having to run like crazy asking for shorts
d. having to face the fact that i have to borrow
but anyway borrowed from diane in the middle of her maths lesson. loves, didi.
PE: still failed NAPFA i think but ms tan said "i can see you've improved."
^^ hais, nevermind lah just focus on volleyball now, apparently we are going to learn it soon.
HCL: xielaoshi is back! wubaisheng was nice but i think he does not like girls who are bad in chinese. and he gives a lot of work. anyway i miss xielaoshi's debates and ghost stories. we did debate today and of course i screwed it, blithely.
still got the bloody worksheet which i am NOT touching.
science: a+ overall. phew..
rs: haha slacked the whole lesson and talked about some random stuff like girls always do. it's so refreshing when the whole topic's not on gossip, sometimes, like when we just chat randomly. which may be childish and primary-schoolish topics but hey we're still young and should live young.
stayed back till like 5.30pm. XD centerstage auditions. gahh. no "communication". bagus lor. had a lot of fun with estella, jasmine, abigail, ashley, ngee siang, yuping, jingxian and couple of other 2c people. well lots of people agreed that i chose the wrong song. FANTASTIC. blew the whole thing lor. but i hope i am THAT lucky to go in then i'll like practise real hard in front of friends and choose a great song and have a chance to make it right. PLEASEEEE. hehe. wishful thinking.
home. MAMA <3 came but going back tonight. days of obligation. eek. got church tomorrow. T_T and got geog so i really should be studying but am NOT. so i should get back to it. SIAN!!
level camp is in like, exactly a week. got pack list already. quite excited. will allow myself to pack AFTER geog test. :)